outlaw metaphysica

Breaking through the astral... Archcons, Gnostics & You.

2011-04-19T22:49:00.000-04:00

Barbara Hand Clow, GrandMother Sky, is doing the radio circuit because she has information to put out. It's the kind of information that can play at drama, but nevertheless, it's important that we know. It's important that we make individual choices to be considered a part of the process.... evolution is happening right now; before your eyes.
Are you paying attention?

The information give in these radio shows is important right now. Please give them a listen.

Everything is perceptual and multidimensional, have you noted? Many of us are walking through the jello of the 4th Dimension *the Astral plane*... a space between worlds of myth and enchantments. And if there is magic in fear and lonliness, the birthplace of what is being referred to as the Archcon's ... the reptilian cast, those who have played GOD to the throngs of 'believers' within Judeo-Christian-Islamic religions, then magic is afoot. We are being so boldly lied to by Corporate Earth (of which those religions are subsidiaries) that it's become vogue to be punked on national and global levels. Consciousness is being 'messed around with' right now and we are challenged to break through the darkness *fear*of it all into Planetary Consciousness... Christ Consciousness... Unity Consciousness... Global Consciousness. Well, we do have it, **you are using it at this very second!** A cohesive Planetary Consciousness that hums with love is our goal. (Remember?) This is info you'll want to listen in on.

Here now; give a listen: I am a maker. I introduce what I make, talk to you about how I've come to make what I make and why. Who has inspired me? The Ancestors and my mentors. I'm sorta like a Mayan, because I think I am simply just 'another yourself'. I'm certainly a crone but I'm not a hypnotherapist. I'm more or less a self evolved aromachologist. I was trained far away to be an aromatherapist, but that's not what I do. I've never used my science degree in psyche except that I taught as a sub teacher in upstate NY for a year after college. I've been very inspired by the stories of our Ancestors and it was Mr. Campbell who steered me onto that path. What I do is blend. I'm a blender of Indigenous scents (plant medicines) and vibrational (flower essences) to specifically create a quality of mind. I do go around a teach people about that. I scribble a lot about it. AND I LOVE WHAT I DO. Do you? It has come to the time when this is vital for survival.

The world is teetering on money. We are slaves to Corporate Earth, an entity that pushes us headlong into species extinction. Count the loss of animal, plant kingdoms per day. It's horrifying. Greed and profiteering is the root chakra of the beast... no! not that old pal.... the real beast... the maddness aloft right now. The true Gaian currency is honest information.

If you have the time, listen to the radio shows. They give you some honest information.

What's coming up?

2011-01-05T20:12:00.000-05:00

BTR show 1/5/11

I’m going to do some coverage on the beginning of the year’s astrological events, how they are bound to affect us this year and why we should be paying attention. And – the tools we can use to better help sync ourselves with the possibilities of change on a global level.

The solstice sun last Dec rose closest to / in alignment / the Galactic Center (Hunab Ku – the black hole center of the Milky Way). Combined with the full moon lunar eclipse on the final winter solstice of the Mayan calendar, the opportunity is being opened before us to take part in a global consciousness that will activated your individual multidimensional consciousness capability. It’s a preparation for the Universal Underworld (T’zolkin) that transforms time accelleration again….

The INTERNET is providing a global consciousness, as well it should… the ending of Day Seven on a new moon in scorpio last November was the fruition of the technology age with it’s goal to move humanity into the a Oneness…. Something achievable through social networks and the internet, now. Mass consciousness looks up when world news breaks, like WikiLeaks… the information trust of Julian Assange… whether the fellow is a hacker for attention or glory hound, he’s accomplished and continues to maintain a stunning flow of information, new knowledge, to share openly / freely through the internet. He’s empowering us with information. INFROMATION IS BECOMING THE CURRENCY OF OUR WORLD. Our ability to unify and make mass changes, in aligned groups, is a dream within the New Age community … whose time has come. I urge you to wake up and smell the new dawn.

The question of human evolution is prominent again. As we choose groups of people to work with in making a difference, those karma collectives we are drawn to, we shed any notion of being sheepele.. and take on a unique individuality that’s not daunted by sharing the load or the recognition. Egoless is not the correct term. Ego harmony might be it. Working together becomes the success and satisfaction for us. Nothing happens on our own. Shedding the need to be lead, or the need to lead and unifying in purpose, project or goal, we are about to achieve actual progress. Reality will shift in this process…. It might get confusing to us physically, emotionally, spiritually. I think we’re being urged to trust our intutions and instincts going forward. We’ve had time to become aware and we do know how to shift our awareness but the thing is, we’ve done all of this before… remember we came out of the sea and grew up from there! We are doing it again.

Gamma rays are hitting us like pinpricks of evolution right now….right out of the heart of heaven. We are being galactically imprinted… for evolution. Imprinted is a hand up, but it’s up to us to awaken to these Light teachers hitting us with galactic information. The galactic info is a lens for recognizing the separate dimensions before us. And there is a power aid in the heart of heaven to assist us… out there in Galactic Center / the black hole of the Milky Way a resource of gamma rays are pumping up the volume, as I said last week. In early November the discovery of gamma ray filled bubbles extending 25,000 light years in either direction creating the equivilant energy of a 100,000 supernova explosions. This is real stuff… Astrophysical Journal published the discovery in November… look for the article by Dennis Overbye. “Bubble of Energy found in the Galaxy”.

This winter we begin to integrate multidimensional consciousness …. The opportunity is here. We can keep an ongoing conversation alive with our multidimensional selves and companions. The tools we’ve worked on for so many years are coming to point. Visualizations, vibratory and homeopathic formulas, essences, fragrances, minerals, crystals and gemstones… all can be ramped up to assist you in calling and recognizing your transisitional guides. Guides that aid your karmic collective groups. The emphasis is on our 9^th, 10^th, 11^th and 12^th chakras. Check the DOI website for our new higher frequency chakra oils… 9, 10, 11, 12 th chakra oils. These are higher vibrational / frequency oils blended with exotic florals and woods. You can find them at http: daughtersofisisinc.wordpress.com or you can find a link on our show page.

And any of you who call the bench and mention Outlaw Metaphysica show can purchase the new chakra or original chakra oils for only $10 each.

Tools are useful… remember, working with imagery, visualizations and using sound tone music with fragrance and ebbing crystal / gemstone / mineral accompaniment is valuable. It assists you in making connections much swifter and with more anchor.

We are faced with developing the dynamics of creating something new while the old disintegrates all around us. We don’t know how long this is going to take… but, well … Bring it on! We are facing new karmic pathways …. Sharpen your cosmic machetes! Plowing the road is getting to be old task for some of us. We’ve just come through some monumental changes / even though it may seem on the political front that a dastardly status quo has been maintained / behind it all, things are dissolving … just not the way we see it on the surface. Think of WikiLeaks, of the social networking that leads to conversations between strangers who become allied with singlular purposes that transcend culture, spiritual / religious orientation and apathy. Strangers who find a commitment in saving the planet and the human species….who have no idea of any booga booga new age Harmonic Convergence and Galactic / Cosmic explosions… they are drawn together in the Hope of creating a safe, sustainable, clean, wholesome worldview evolution that saves their family… their dreams… their hopes. And friends…. That’s where we’ve been headed all along. This is the maturing of our souls’. A new awareness and understanding of our purpose in life. Folks on facebooks talk the talk and in mind if they are walking the walk… the intentions are a generator of huge consciousness / a force to be reckoned with. We are forming a unique new cultural movement… a struggle for political transparency and justice.

"ZERO Tolerance" in NYC?

2010-08-05T00:09:00.001-04:00

Have you heard about "Zero Tolerance" in New York right now? We are mainly speaking about 1st Amendment issues, religious freedoms and the right to be. An issue circling 'ground zero' in New York has the very 'ground zero of liberalism' (my own definition) ADL standing against allowing a Islamic community center to opened at Ground Zero. Mayor Bloomberg addressed the issue with Empire State pride:

The Anti-Defamation League said it has no use for the bigots who have used anti-Islamic rhetoric to try and block the project.:

["However, there are understandably strong passions and keen sensitivities surrounding the World Trade Center site," the organization said in a statement.
"We are ever mindful of the tragedy which befell our nation there."
This is not, the ADL said, "a question of rights, but a question of what is right."
"In our judgment, building an Islamic Center in the shadow of the World Trade Center will cause some victims more pain - unnecessarily - and that is not right."
The ADL also said "some legitimate questions have been raised" about who funding the project and "what connections, if any, its leaders might have with groups whose ideologies stand in contradiction to our shared values."
J Street, a rival Jewish civil rights group that tangled with the ADL in the past, accused the venerable organization of giving in to the "fear mongerers."
Meanwhile, the Interfaith Alliance in Washington said it was disappointed in the ADL.
The Cordoba Initiative, the group planning the mosque, had no immediate statement.] - NY Daily News

Color me confused! I am a member of the ACLU... ADL is just a more compacted, better member organized version of it with an intellectual accent! I was born in and went to school in the Empire State. I consider it mega evolved, they have set the regular standard for conscious growth and politics. With all of the infighting and corruption intact, you can still stand New York state against any other as state of awareness. Conscious politics and walking a spiritual talk is still possible in the Big Apple.
Join Asa and Gwen in discussion about the ongoing argument over religious freedom and the investment of an Islamic community center a few blocks from Ground Zero. The arguments are being engaged by several groups, polarizing the downtown community and the American nation (in general). Join us discussing how religious freedom and the 1st Amendment are being examined through demonstration. Are you walking your spiritual talk?

Conscious Business & BTR "OM - outlaw metaphysica"

2010-07-25T19:46:00.000-04:00

It's mean season in FL, a good time to be fiddling around inside, out the skin prickling sun and being creative. So, it's been Cosmic Comedy Radio Show with Nicole Tomassini up in NYC and now Daughters of Isis is sponsoring a BTR (blogtalkradio.com) show hooked to this outlaw metaphysica blog. The show will be hosted by myself, the blender and my friend / business partner, Asa Hoffman. I hope you will join us at 11pm (the 11th hour) live at http://www.blogtalkradio.com/daughters-of-isis OM!

Our first outing will focus on conscious business. A conscious business is an enterprise tended with love and Light. First description. The more common grasp explains business in demonstration aware of all the cause and effect the business is responsible for. A 'conscious businessperson' develops their business with specific attention paid to how it will change humanity and the planet in a positive, evolving dynamic. To quote many: [Conscious Business describes a movement of business people towards 'valued based' economic value... values represent social and environmental concerns local and global.] The one agreed on rule of conscious business (there are none in complicit agreement standard) is to DO NO HARM. Great rule, been agreed on by almost every culture humanity has formed. The origins of conscious business sprung from the theory Corporate Social Responsibility. Working models include Not Just for Profit Business Models, Conscious Consumerism and Socially Responsible Investing. It's a form of capitalism that reinvests in the stability of all the staples of business, any business, while turning a happy, well adjusted profit for the business people and those who invest in them. This way of life, of living is a model ... the rules are elastic according to the individual(s) creating business and those who purchase from them.

Environmentalism and the Green economy is bedrock here. It's a tag line of new business: People, Planet, Profit.
Here are trade marks:
Creating a co-working space that honors the individuals no matter what the job they perform is.
Providing benefits for everyone equally to the job / time they preform and give.
Always use the Fair Trade materials for manufacturing or sales.
Support for Fair Trade resources / communities everywhere.
Invest in your community with time, creativity and your profits.

A Green Business is expected to follow certain guidelines:
Recycle. The the fullest extent possible.
Build zero impact / Green workplaces that will stand through time.
Using green energy / solar or wind or both... when possible.
Always purchase organic / sustainable farming goods or materials.
Develop resources with the same Green committments.
Work to shape more Green business partners.
Use sustainable product packaging.

These are few of the basics we will be discussing, Please join us and call in with your Green business stories!
Monday night 11pm BTR ... online. (Link above!) OM - outlaw metaphysica radio show

Dreaming the Spider GrandMother this summer...Partial Lunar Eclipse Full Moon 6/26

2010-06-23T16:44:00.190-04:00

Full Moon and Partial Lunar Eclipse on June 26: Summer Solstice has given way to phenomenal planetary incidents that are all connective, a new weave into the larger web of our shifting consciousness that is going to be felt for many years. We are consciously and unconsciously seeking to establish evolutionary patterns in survival, solutions for and to manifest a new paradigm. We should be constantly releasing our FEARS now, it will compel us more fully into compassionate service. Most of all, pay attention to and honor your dreams through summer, the Spider GrandMother weaves her web of connectivity and creativity among us all, now. She is asking us to "make our world". A very sterile world looms in shadow, the Goddess is urging us to banish it.

In between worlds has become as unstable as the world in which our bodies walk on the Earth Mother. Go and check it out! Take care of yourself on the Zuvuya (astral plane or 4D) right now... archetypal interaction on a personal level triggers the great stinger on the busy bee of physical and shamanic death, buzzing through this summer... tending to focus our awareness on the difficulties in relating to and experiencing opposition with those asleep to the changes underway. The best idea is to let it inspire compassion in us. The summer invites us to learn and grow through our insect animal brothers and sisters; this summer it a potent awakening time between us. Progress in all worlds is subject to the accelerating time, things are in a transitioning reality. Ceremony and ritual will contribute greater positive resonance within the shifts we are experiencing... in groups or performed solitary in nature, bringing ourselves into alignment with the Earth Mother and the assisting the archetypes who are so close to us now will bring more and more stability into these changing times. It's vital that we ground in our bodies and do the thing we do as well as we might... fully, heavily grounded. We are shifting back and forth between ecstatic creativity, new world manifestation and awesome cataclysms within a world becoming more and more susceptible to our intentions! More than ever, working with Light visualization techniques is vital to accomplish your personally shifted consciousness! There is extra volume in the Light to be tapped right now! Imagineering gains greater manifest levels throughout the summer while the transformation in shamanic death beckons each of us as the mirror image of the black death filling our Gulf of Mexico. Allow the residual solstice energies to align you with the Earth Mother and pay attention to the Full Moon - partial Lunar eclipse this week!
"The Full Moon and Partial Lunar Eclipse on June 26, there is a grand cross alignment that occurs. This grand cross can be a very optimistic sign, and many call it a birth of a new Spirit that will uplift our energy, and open our hearts. If we look back, we can remember the grand cross of 1999, and it was life changing for me in a positive way." Aluna Joy Yaxk'in

The Lunar Eclipse (Full Moon) of 26 June 2010 is conjunct Pluto very closely by just 41 minutes. Astrologers have been very interested in this for a while because it is a trigger for the big T-square with Saturn opposite Uranus, both square Pluto. Major upheavels have been predicted including social and political unrest, more economic collapses, and more catastrophic earthquakes and volcanic activity. The chart for this Lunar Eclipse shows a powerful Grand Cross configuration which can be a sign of suffering but also of giving service to those in need. It denotes:

soul evolution
major cosmic transformations
creativity out of destruction
it's relative to huge physical explosions on either side of the event
huge shifts in global politics / including multi-national corporations & organized crime
awful endings / new, brighter beginnings

None of previously recorded eclipses' have been in the 'grand cross' configuration! With the ongoing gush from a mile below the surface in the Gulf of Mexico, this bodes extreme situations. Still, it's time to batten our hatches and settle into the ride for as long as we might hold on... eh? Pluto rides us. A fixed star conjuncts Uranus in this 'grand cross', Kaus Medius, where typically conjunctions among the outer planets have included these incidents:

[The last time Uranus was conjunct Kaus Medius in 1989, Ruhollah Khomeini put a bounty on the head of Salman Rushdie, a geomagnetic storm shut down the Hydro-Quebec power grid leaving 6 million people without power for 9 hours, the Exon Valdez spilled 240,000 barrels of oil, the Hillborough disaster killed 96 Liverpool supporters, the Tiananmen Square massacre left 2,600 student dead, the Cold War officially ended, and 645 Russians died in the Ufa train disaster.
The previous conjunct of Uranus to Kaus Medius in 1905 saw a mine explosion in Courrieres which killed 1,060 French miners, the devastation of Naples by Mount Vesuvius, and a 7.8 magnitude earthquake in San Francisco which killed 3,000 people.] - funky astro uk

This Gulf Oil Spill crisis is a major wake up call to find community with Gaia. Earth Mother bleeds. What shall we do? Each of us takes the actions we are inspired to. Don't doubt yourself, follow through on your instincts. You intentions mean much, make them the best you able to imagine.

{In the chart for the Summer Solstice, the Sun moves into Cancer and opposes Pluto, while Pluto squares Jupiter/Uranus which are opposing Saturn. That is, summer intensification arrives in the frequency field of a Grand Square in early cardinal signs (except for Saturn in late Virgo racing for cardinal Libra). During this Solstice, the Cardinal Crunch goes into first gear and culminates during the next New Moon on July 11, a total solar eclipse. When planets are in early cardinal signs, we are initiating a whole new creative phase as the old forms collapse, and the Grand Square locks in this new phase. Grand Squares are rare astrological configurations that force us to totally change ourselves by integrating the great creative potential of oppositions.} Barbara Hand Clow's Astroflash! read the whole post.

Ms. Clow goes on to shine her interpretive light onto what the greater gains are this summer: she forecasts a collapsing of the three main monotheistic religions, finally, as they succumb to 'vortex of war and sexual abuse'. ( There can be no lying to ourselves or avoidance with Jupiter/Uranus in such a close square to the Solstice Sun, especially since the Sun exactly squares Uranus during the evening of the Solstice. This intense square will shake out the angry people who resist changing our world. Pluto in Capricorn, courageously leading the ultimate transformation of our world for the next twenty years, is right there opposing the Solstice Sun; Pluto demands deep change now. Meanwhile, Pluto is pushed to the max by the Uranus/Jupiter square. Grumbling from the inner Earth, Pluto says, "You can't survive unless you are honest and care for life on this planet now.")

No where does the need to 'wake up' to the dissolving environment exist in a more glaring spotlight than in America. We are in the midst of what will probably become the most horrendous environmentally destructive, eco-disaster, in the history of the world.

We must put our collective focus on solutions to the economic, environmental, sociological, war mongering idiocy that is marching a majority of Americans back to that ole reliable: the edge of destruction.

Visualize healing, solutions to our global dilemmas.

Picture the Gulf of Mexico back to blue.

A video on HPB, enjoy.

Doctor my eyes - Hoagland interview on methane gas pocket in the Gulf

2010-06-22T02:19:00.000-04:00

have seen the years, and the slow parade of tears...
as the climate clock metronomes furiously towards game over. We won't hear what the Earth Mother pleads to us! Communicating through her elements, she tells us we have to 'return to our senses'! Soon, our senses will be unable to escape the graphic and chilling new awareness: we will see, hear, feel, smell and taste it all and when that happens... en masse, we will have to change to survive.
Julie Gray over @ HuffPo posted a piece on grieving in which she offered us this startling eventuality; "Suicide is the mother of all woulda-coulda-shoulda the why the whys the whys. Suicide is the howl that sucks out your breath and hallows out your insides in one jagged pull." It says___ how much distance our modern lives have put between us and the holistic reality of death and devastation, we only observe it from a distance. We won't see or hear our own lapse into suicide as a species. The oil spilling in the Gulf of Mexico the latest and most significant signal to us.

Then there is just the complete idiocy of the past imperfect leadership:

Visit msnbc.com for breaking news, world news, and news about the economy

We have not been given all the facts in what is happening, either. There is another deadly reality laying in wait for us in all of this for us:

Methane clathrate, also called methane hydrate, methane ice or "fire ice" is a solid clathrate compound (more specifically, a clathrate hydrate) in which a large amount of methane is trapped within a crystal structure of water, forming a solid similar to ice.^[1] Originally thought to occur only in the outer regions of the Solar System where temperatures are low and water ice is common, significant deposits of methane clathrate have been found under sediments on the ocean floors of Earth.^{[2] Wikipedia}
In the less common second type found near the sediment surface some samples have a higher proportion of longer-chain hydrocarbons (<99% methane) contained in a structure II clathrate. Carbon from this type of clathrate is isotopically heavier (δ¹³C is -29 to -57 ‰) and is thought to have migrated upwards from deep sediments, where methane was formed by thermal decomposition of organic matter. Examples of this type of deposit have been found in the Gulf of Mexico and the Caspian Sea.^[8]

^{The point is, methane clathrate is highly reoccurring in the Gulf of Mexico due to organic decomp from the petroleum mining, the primary activity in the Gulf for over 50 years.}
^{The following excerpts from Coast to Coast AM radio reveal a theory Dr. Richard Hoagland is espousing. Something awesomely frightening. I worked with Hoagland on the Miami Circle several years ago; he had a heart attack while he explored the origins of the site with us. He recovered very well, but I have to say___}
^{his theories have been a boggle, every since. Still, you have to give a listen to what he trying to warn us about. This methane problem is seeping into the dialogues of Anderson Cooper and even Robert Redford. Listen to these excerpts from the radio show:}

Beneath the Bahama's, a bubble or geodetic blob was discovered in the late 80's. The US Navy charted - found it using the same electronics: GPS and depth finding sonar equipment. Being obscure, and unconfirmed, the Navy did not even publish or report the anomaly, while the scientists involved in the recovery of data eventually published the information online.

There is plenty of plausibility for this dangerous situation. Is it true? It would be nice to know with some certainty. Coast to Coast AM is not exactly my first choice for duly diligent research on this matter. However; when you consult the past, it's been the outrageous 'media' where the awful truth hid prior to exposition / impact. I think you can see where I'm going here....

at least I hope you can. If the conversation is continued, then the 'facts' or the story has to exposed and explored. We have been lied to by the government and BP throughout this incident. There is no reason for any of us to "believe" they are telling us the complete truth or the whole story on what is happening on the ocean floor. Senator Bill Nelson of Florida has been trying to bring attention to the fact of all the fissures and 'cracks' in the ocean floor and the dangers no one is paying enough to ...

I'm just saying....

Milky Way stellar blow out...

2010-06-18T10:10:00.000-04:00

The star (white dot in center of red ring) is one of the most massive stellar residents of our Milky Way galaxy. Objects like this are called Wolf-Rayet stars, after the astronomers who found the first few, and they make our sun look puny by comparison. Called V385 Carinae, this star is 35 times as massive as our sun, with a diameter nearly 18 times as large. It's hotter, too, and shines with more than one million times the amount of light.
Fiery candles like this burn out quickly, leading short lives of only a few million years. As they age, they blow out more and more of the heavier atoms cooking inside them—atoms such as oxygen that are needed for life as we know it.

DOLPHIN MEDICINE

2010-06-15T11:31:00.000-04:00

Old friend Ted Andrews tells us that the Medicine or essential lessons taught to us by the porpoise / dolphin is in the power of breath and sound. Jamie Sams agrees with the Medicine of breath, taking in lifeforce energy... to accept the gift of usable energy and the 'touch' the invisible.

They are as ageless as they are dominant in all seasons. They are cousin to the killer whale, a mammal that teaches us the quality of patience. Dolphins stand out in the stories of our Ancestors as the friends' of sailors, often guiding us into port or saving us from attack by sea predators. Dolphins reflect essential aspects of living, breath and water. Without either, we are cooked! Primordial water and cleansing breath, Dolphin helps us to refine our personal use and comfort for each of these elements'. And of course, they bring us unbridled joy. Something about dolphins will make you laugh, fill you with wonder and renew your sense of hope. We need them so, at this time. It is high crime what the crude oil spill is doing to all the wondrous creatures we share the sea with... dolphins are my friends, I am afraid for them right now. Sending Light and guiding them to steer clear of the Gulf of Mexico basin right now is important.

Anyone with breathing difficulties can benefit by developing a relationship with Dolphin. Learning new techniques of breathwork, meditation, healing work and various relative breath exercises are expanded using Dolphin as your guide teaching you rhythmic breath and motion; endowing you with a powerful tool for good health.

Knowing where you are isn't always as finite as it seems. Of course, it's a metphorical answer, yet the sonar sensitivities of Dolphin can teach us how to 'find' ourselves in settling down into the quiet within and listening for the answer.

- The Greeks considered dolphins messengers of the gods... they do have a tendency to 'talk' to us. Early Christians thought them to be symbolic of our salvation. In almost every ancient culture it is a criminal to injure or kill a dolphin. Emblematic of fresh air, enjoyment and releasing stress... it's even more important right now to

RELEASE ALL CAPTURED DOLPHINS ON THE WEST (& EAST) COAST OF FLORIDA USED IN 'SWIM WITH THE DOLPHINS' ENTERPRISES.

PLEASE SET THEM FREE SO THEY MIGHT ESCAPE THE BLACK DEATH THE GULF OIL SPILL WILL SERVE THEM?

I think they both have a point.

2010-04-21T13:46:00.000-04:00

Mind over Matter or just Dreams?

2010-04-10T10:51:00.000-04:00

The crossroads of science intersecting spirituality has installed itself in our society, our transcultural meme! The cosmos has actually become our 'doorstep'. The nature of consciousness is being rediscovered within the study of quantum physics and in the intersecting ideals of eastern / western metaphysics. The dance of electron particle becomes the dance of Shiva... this invaluable demonstration of the ancient relationship between science and our 'sacred' pursuits as was reintroduced to western society via Fritjof Capra and his relative illuminate treatise, "The Tao of Physics". Many talented, spiritually gifted scientists have continued to pry open the way for a new, Known into the Unknown; a description of the dynamics of our eternity. Here we are at another threshold of species evolution, keyed in a new awareness of our "reality"... and you might think; "I hear that all the time" yet... do you actually grasp a valid meaning of this "new awareness" in its' paradigm shifting capacities? I'm guessing, that even among the most enthusiastic among us, we are not. Since Capra's publishing in 1975, the publishing of more and more has reveale and landslid into the here and Now with such tremendous new data input that we are caught at a 'think it through' edge of a truly paradigm shifting, world consciousness raising: new awareness. Well, some of us are attempting to be,

anyway. And that's the gig, man. Evolution through consciousness... as Carl Sagan tried to point towards, it's the evolution of our intelligence (Braca's Brain - The Dragons of Eden). Popular fiction and entertainment has grasped onto this consciousness raising and quantum mechanics with gusto. One of the most interesting expressions of this s demonstrated in the he SyFy series "Caprica". There's some uncharted territory! You are challenged to personally define or determine the nature of your 'soul' or the everlasting incarnation of individuality in the exposure of what a 'cylon' actually is vs the preternatural relationship of the human being with materially conscious existence and their personality or individuation, which we might understand as exhausted once we transmigrate into another incarnation. Kinda gets you into the spirit of things! Oh Oh! And slip the engaging and seductive world of 'virtual reality' into that! A metaphysical final exam presented in a tv series'. I'm enjoying it.

Yet...

All of this elegant speculation and scientific resolve is not offering a clear demonstration of the social transformation we so desperately require in order to move into the next stage of human evolution. Creating any "shift" (movement in evolution) is anchored in groups / societies changing their minds in a drastic ways... event inspired evolution.
Or is it that the mystics among us are holding the resonant standards of social shifting to allow whole groups of people to experience an event... or maybe knocking on doors on Saturdays; one at a time...? Who will say?
The majority of us who work and strive and ride on public transportation, use public services, go to movies, consume cable and shop so very carefully are tasked to move beyond survival, into a state of being that sheers away from common fears... common hate ...common confusion... we are asking ourselves to evolve, to shed these mind tricks, in spite of all the life long programs we have tricked ourselves into serving that make it a miracle now to achieve this leap of consciousness. We continue to seek the way not into falling through the rabbit hole but to consciously pierce the veil and cross over a new threshold into that
new awareness.

Whats' consistent is our dreaming.
We are paying full attention to our dreams and our dreamtime.
Perhaps it's in our dreams that we stumble past the mind tricks, shed the trickster illusions of projections or looking backwards...maybe dreaming will bring us through?

An academinc contribution: The Place Where Men Become Gods: A Look at the Nature of The Place Where Men Become Gods: A Look at the Nature of Teotihuacan’s Regional Hegemony

2010-01-17T14:49:00.000-05:00

Jenn Murphy / Florida Atlantic University student has contributed her paper for publish here on my blog. I hope you enjoy it as much as I have. It's filled with insight and resources.

Jenn Murphy

ANT 3163

Term Paper 2009

The Place Where Men Become Gods: A Look at the Nature of Teotihuacan’s Regional Hegemony

The magnificent reach of the city Teotihuacan has attracted the attention of archaeologists and historians for centuries, its monumental pyramids and fantastic artwork sparking the imaginations of Mesoamerican scholars all around the world. Mural art depicting religious epics covered the city and although many masterpieces have been poorly preserved, the artwork is still able to convey its original meaning to modern archaeologists. Around 350 murals catalogue the rich ideology and religion of Teotihuacan known eloquently as The Place where Men become Gods, the vibrant pantheon covered the walls of the great city. The architectural calling card of the Teotihuacanos, the talud-tablero motif usually used on the façade of monumental structures has been found as far as the Guatemalan highlands. This cultural spread is one of many indications that the city was a political hub not only in Central Mexico, but all over Mesoamerica. Along with being a strong urban center, there is overwhelming evidence for Teotihuacan as a solid political force with all the makings of a legitimate state instead of a tribal conglomeration. This evidence is hidden within the living arrangements of the city, the domination of multiple industries and their capable military force. At its height, Teotihuacan housed around 200,000 individuals within its urban limits—while it was not the first Mesoamerican city to urbanize, it was certainly the largest and most efficient. Artisans emerged from the new social system and allowed for an explosion of art, while the Teotihuacanos also dominated the supply of green Pachuca obsidian used for trade. Leather working, weaving and mural painting were no longer creative past times, and became industries within themselves. This diversification of occupation among the people of Teotihuacan shows an increase in the production of consumer goods as socio-economic stratification emerged. There is no doubt that Teototihuacan was a mature state and archaeologists agree that after its massive urbanization, the city stretched its influence to other regions. However it is unclear whether Teotihuacan invaded and conquered these areas that have exhibited strong Teotihuacano influence or if the visible influence is a result of a more benign relationship. Two camps of historians, art historians and archaeologists form to debate the tone of Teotihuacan presence throughout Mesoamerica at the height of the Classic period. Externalists argue that the reach of Teotihuacan was pushed with military excursions, leaving the conquered states subservient to the capital. Alternately, the Internalists believe that the presence of Teotihuacan culture in foreign areas does not accurately illuminate power relations and offer alternative theories to the hegemonic power that the city held.

The dominance of Teotihuacan is clearly seen in key areas around Mesoamerica, including but not limited to Monte Alban, Tikal, Copan and Kaminaljuyu. In the Valley of Oaxaca, the city of Monte Alban is an example of Teotihuacan influence mixed with local variation. Archaeologists have found a modified variation of the talud-tablero architecture on their monumental structures, along with stuccos exhibiting Teotihuacan-style ornamentation in the tombs. Although the tombs maintain a typically Zapotec organization, there is intimate relation between the murals that grace the tomb walls and Teotihuacan tradition (Coe and Koontz, 2002; 125). The Mayan city of Tikal is often hotly debated between scholars and opinions of whether Teotihuacan invaded the city or not fluctuates. The Tikal Project uncovered foreign ceramics in burials 10 and 48 along with Stelae 32 and 41 which pointed to a connection with Teotihuacan seemed to solidify a tumultuous relationship between the two cities early in the project’s life (Braswell, 2006). Other Teotihuacan-style vessels and artifacts were found in burials and variations of the talud-tablero architecture were found throughout monuments, further illustrating contact. Perhaps one of the most interesting discoveries regarding the relationship between Tikal and Teotihuacan was made by Tatiana Proskouriakoff, an epigrapher who concluded that the death of the Tikal king “Great Paw” was related to the arrival of foreigners bearing Central Mexican weapons (Proskouriakoff, 1993). To further implant the notion of a Teotihuacan-led invasion, Clemency Coggins postulated that the king “Curl Nose” who succeeded “Great Paw” was a foreigner from Teotihuacan-influenced Kaminaljuyu (Coggins, 1975). Copan also shows strong Teotihuacan influence in the talud-tablero facades and the distribution of Thin Orange Wear in a burial site. The presence of Central Mexican ceramics and locally manufactured architecture in foreign style also point to Teotihuacan presence at the site of Kaminaljuyu (Braswell, 2006). However scholars have postulated that the cultural influence at Kaminaljuyu was more than a simple trade relationship and Stephan de Borhegyi attributes the strong Teotihuacano flavor to “missionizing zeal” and the quest to convert the population to their own pantheon (Borhegyi, 1971). Whether through trade or proselytization, the link between Teotihuacan and Kaminaljuyu is undeniable and there is evidence of foreign settlers in the city. There is also evidence that the Teotihuacan Empire used the city of Kaminaljuyu as a makeshift military outpost in order to expand its reach further into the Mayan region, especially when dealing with the city of Tikal. All these sites have elements of Teotihuacano contact, from the widely distributed talud-tablero architecture to burial murals and ceramics. Scholars have also noted the spread of the pantheon of Teotihuacan and the iconography mimicked by those sites in contact with the great city— although this is a potential indicator of cultural integration, possibly from an implementation of military force, there is no absolute evidence for the use of force .These sites provide just a handful of the cities that Teotihuacan seemed to have control over, though the nature of that control is currently being debated.

The Internalist versus Externalist debate is built along thin lines. Both agree that Teotihuacan dominated Mesoamerican during the Classic period but according to Geoffrey Braswell, they differ on three fronts: the degree of Teotihuacan impact, the duration of the political, social and economic changes experienced by the satellite city and whether that satellite city was a passive or active participant (Braswell, 2006). The dichotomizing concept of splitting these opposing views is laid out by Braswell, grouped by how they view Teotihuacan’s rise to hegemonic power. Externalists believe that Teotihuacan set its sights on militarily conquering others due to multiple strains on the population, its status as a mature city-state requiring a spreading of territorial conquest. Ignacio Bernal equates the empire to a wave, looming above the Mesoamerican political landscape and suddenly covering all in overwhelming force (Bernal, 1966). He also admits that the control might not have been monolithic and that the superficial control of faraway cities led to self-governance among them which was paramount to the cohesion of the empire. Regardless of the depth of control, Bernal notes the integration of Teotihuacano culture flavored with local variation as evidence of conquest (Bernal, 1966). This argument of a stronger, more invasive Teotihuacan is structured around early Mesoamerican archaeology and the argument that the adoption of a style coupled with the multifaceted strength of Teotihuacan insured conquest. However, Internalists argue that the simple flow of art styles and ceramics do not automatically point to a strong military presence in those areas. These scholars view the Teotihuacan cultural influence as a result of a trade-dominated web of relationships between cities—the concept of economic control rings true, especially in the resource rich Mayan lowlands. Instead of being the passive recipients of foreigners in their lands, the Internalists argue that centuries of transactions and trade made the Mayans active participants in economic growth. This flow of trade could then also translate into a transfer of cultural ideas and art styles as well through mutual exchange of intellectual information—in cultures where an economy is flourishing, greater varieties in art and creative expression are seen. It should be noted that economic determinism builds bonds as steadfast as political or military incursion and either way, Mesoamerican felt the overwhelming presence of Teotihuacan.

The concept of active participants versus passive participants in the flow of Teotihuacan culture is central to the debate over the nature of foreign relations. Especially in the Mayan lowlands, this dichotic argument is seen. The abundance of resources such as cacao, rubber, jadetite, and quetzal feathers made the Mayan lowlands a valuable trade partner with Teotihuacan, although both sides of the scholarly debate interperate this dynamic differently. On one hand, it would have been beneficial to both the Mayans and Teotihuacanos to maintain an amicable trade relation with one another without the threat of invasion: although there are tensions with every trade relationship, if both participants are benefitting than there is little need for force. This view portrays the Mayans as actively inviting Teotihuacan presence within their territory for economic gain, a scenario that gives the Mayans power by choosing to have foreigners in their cities. On the other hand, the resources prove to be an enticing prize for a large city with military capabilities such as Teotihuacan. An unsolicited march into the Mayan lowlands leave the Maya passive within the relationship and allowing the flow of influence not because they allowed it, but because they had little choice. Both sides cite archaeological evidence for their argument but as Geoffrey Braswell pointed out, “pots are not people” and the flow of ceramics cannot wholly tell contemporary scholars what transpired more than a millennia ago.

In reality, I feel that polarizing the nature of Teotihuacan presence in Mesoamerica is narrow-minded and instead scholars should consider a mixture of both military domination and economic cooperation. The interactions between Teotihuacan seem to be multi-faceted and complex, lending itself to a spectrum of relationship strategies rather than pure invasion and exploitation. Over a span of centuries, the empire wound its way through different cities and it is safe to believe that not every city handled the presence of Teotihuacan the same. With evidence as merchants acting as military vanguard, the dynamic between Teotihuacan and the rest of Mesoamerica becomes much more complicated and perhaps cities were dealt with on a case-by-case basis (Davies, 1982; 94). After all, not all shoes fits the same foot and surely the Teotihuacanos understood that more than any other Mesoamerican city—a myriad of relationships enable them to conquer those who truly fought their presence and deal amicably with trade partners. It is also pertinent to consider that perhaps these satellite cities didn’t pop up within a decade or even a few decades, but instead took a century or more to align with the great metropolis through gradual integration. The transfer of ceramics and green obsidian does not denote absolute presence within smaller sites and also does not guarantee direct contact with Teotihuacan itself; it is plausible that the satellite sites linked with Teotihuacan used the resources they had at their disposal for trade and they happened to be Teotihuacano in nature. Prized green obsidian could easily be used as currency in exchange for resources that the Mayans were in need of and therefore trade relations with other populations could have furthered the spread of the tell-tale obsidian. It is also possible that mimicry popped up in sites that were mostly unrelated due to admiration of the Teotihuacan style. Speculation runs the gambit about the level and depth of Teotihuacan presence over Mesoamerican: how superficial was Teotihuacan’s control over cities like Tikal and Kaminaljuyu? Did the lack of micromanagement from the political power in Teotihuacan allow for greater expansion of the empire? These questions may or may not ever be answered and therefore flexibility regarding the nature of Teotihuacan’s relations with other cities must be exercised.

With every stride in research that is made, more questions spring from the answers that archaeologists and historians have uncovered. There is no doubt that Teotihuacan was a shining theocracy, the first of its kind in the New World rich with its own unique culture and ambitions. The massive murals that covered the city inspire the imaginations of generations of new aspiring archaeologists, the imagery of the colorful pantheon delighting both scholars and laymen alike. Beyond the great pyramids and awe-inspiring feats of engineering lay a complex society complete with socio-economic stratification and economic specialization. As the virtual engine of Central Mexico, classic Teotihuacan was a powerhouse of political power and trade dominance with the ability to spread its influence far from home. The nature of Teotihuacan’s relations with the cities it influenced during its height in the Classic period is still hotly debated among scholars and polarized opinions run from one side of the spectrum to the other. Although some might cite the lack of cohesive opinion among scholars as a weakness, I believe that the debate is beneficial to careful studies of Teotihuacan and other prehistoric Mesoamerican sites, resulting in a greater effort towards cultural preservation and a renewal in the interest of pre-Columbian life. No matter how the Teotihuacanos managed to spread their influence over such a large area, one thing is for certain: where ever Teotihuacan made its presence felt, economic and creative abundance flowed.

Remarkable...

2010-01-15T17:19:00.000-05:00

My idea of Divinity might be described best as the capacity within each of us for kindness and love… I am a daughter of Isis. (It ain’t just the name of the bidnezz) Today I heard a story, one that captured me:

A UPS driver who came to us from Haiti and now has an American wife, confided his Spiritual dilemma…how he has converted, for his wife, to Christianity. But, he is hurt (not mad, but hurt) to think that Americans, his wife included, would think of the Haitian People as devil worshiper’s, God-less and damned. He is very dejected, isolated in his tragedy, worried that his family on the island are dead and now he feels he has to endure his native Spirit is being exiled from his new home by ignorant judgment.

It breaks my heart.

I understand Voodoun. I understand it as a Yoruban spiritual expression, an ancient African heartbeat that resonates with the forces of the cosmos, reaching into the stars, where the masks of humanity have been placed onto the essence of life giving qualities that reside there as cosmic forces. These forces are invited into an intimacy among those who attend the Bembe (voodoun ceremony), to express themselves through the ceremonialists who call on them for healing… Healing of many different kinds. Heal the heart of failed love? Perhaps Mamon Brigette will come to you, counsel your heart and leave you with renewed vitality to open it again. Lonesome and ignored by the world? Erzulie, with one of her many faces, can delight you with a courage to ask for vibrant life, to celebrate it and to love. Are you looking to help heal someone of a terrible illness? Papa Legba might be there to guide you towards the best remedies with the help of Loko, a Spirit of medicine in the plants and vegetation surrounding us. Do you hunger for comfort and sustenance? The Mother Osun will wrap her arms around you and still the terrors of want and death. These are cosmic principles that invest all of life… and the African dimensions of awareness for them give shape and form to them using the template of our humanity. Yoruban spirituality is not based in negative or evil expressions… but then again, neither do the Judeo/Christian/Islamic expressions of faith…in principle… yet must I describe the plenty of examples there to illuminate the evil that those faiths have dispensed (and still do?). Those who practice the Petro side of voodoun are not common nor do they represent the majority of the voodoun faith. Shame on anyone who condemns another for their faith or beliefs. Especially at a time of such tragedy and devastation.

Like attracts like, and perhaps the young man got me as a pick up today by some stoke of goodness so that he might be able to experience that not everyone thinks his spirituality is something wicked. He said there was a silver lining to it all; that now Haiti will have to rebuild and if the US and UN are there to oversee, then perhaps it will be done properly and good folks will get good jobs to rebuild their lives. I think it remarkable that a young man who fled Haiti because of the poverty and hardship, who is feeling so alone and alienated from his new family right now, has grasped that his homeland might experience a new dawn from all of this devastation and judgment. People are remarkable.

They are Hopeful. And within all this chos afar, it's something to be able to understand how resilient our spirits' are. Hopeful.

In all of this.

The most amazing things you can do with video...

2010-01-13T10:44:00.000-05:00

It's truly amazing what you might learn glancing through youtube. Ceremony specifying evocation / invocation is examplified in this video. Not many of us work in dynamic with the Goetia; yet many of the same tools are extent. This video is has been made by Caroll Poke Runyon, who evokes the spirit of Astarte.

happy new Georgian year & not all mysiogmy is terrible :-)

2010-01-11T18:51:00.000-05:00

For those seeking remedies....

2009-11-22T19:06:00.000-05:00

Witch bottle from the 18th century....

Above is an 18th century "witch bottle," used to fend off evil spirits. Discovered at a construction site in the London borough of Greenwich, this example is particularly rare because it's still corked. Retired chemistry professor Dr. Alan Massey analyzed the bottle and its curious contents. From Fortean Times:

(The bottle) contained 12 bent iron nails (one of which pierced a small leather heart), eight brass pins, 10 adult fingernail pairings (sic) (not from a manual worker, but a person "of some social standing"), a quantity of hair and urine with traces of nicotine, indicating it had come from a smoker. There were also traces of sulphur, then known as brimstone, and what is thought to be navel fluff. The brimstone recalled the passage in Revelation where the beast and the false prophet were "cast alive into a lake of fire burning with brimstone".

"Discovery of witch bottle used to drive away evil spells"

completed ripped off for your remedial applications from BoingBoing! The point is, potency is a complicated thing... and the more 'of personal origin' any kind of 'magic' or 'spellcrafting' is, well, then there's the ticket!

Videos on the Maya and the 6th world

2009-11-17T15:11:00.000-05:00

Though I am 100% in agreement with details of what is projected in these two videos, I do acknowledge the empirical data supporting each of the video's below. Some very important information in them the lends a larger understanding of the time codes we are experiencing.

There is also this to see: Jose Arguelles speaking on the concept of Galactic Alignment 2012. If you've invested yourself in viewing the data above, then allow yourself to imagine the remedies!

The two part blog on CATASTROPHOBIA is important information on what we must process. The first two videos offer substantiation of the phenomena and the clues we have to it. The last video is one of the best snapshots' I can find of what the possibilities are for us to change our world. Calamity is not hard to do. Healing takes commitment and work.

The Final Baktun: releasing CATASTROPHOBIA...PT 2

2009-11-16T10:29:00.000-05:00

It's not a pole shift!
It's a global consciousness shift!
It's not super charged neutrinos and shifting earth mantle!
Planet X or Niburu will not slam into us...
what waits is a global community and
the task of healing our planet
as we reach into the cosmos with our consciousness.

It's not going to be a huge explosive roller coaster of disaster. It will, however, be Earth Changing. Instead of an end of time, there is a the renewal of a time keeping system based in resonant time cycles assisting us in balancing our awareness with our planet and it's neighbors both galactic and solar.

Before we can demonstrate that anticipated kind of 'ascended' or transcending behavior, we absolutely must each face the racial memory within (humanity) holding onto the darkness of a catastrophic destruction in 9500 B.C.E. [this kind of phenomenon has been detected through astrophysical and geological science to occur about every 30 million years, an event affecting our entire solar system]. The 'myth' of this catastrophe includes the fall of Atlantis and the biblical Great Flood of Noah. Such myths are core stories in every culture on the planet, an unerring account of planetary cataclysm that literally devastated most humanity into pockets of survivalism; cave dwelling and shore dwelling hunter gather societies struggling to remember the advance of their mother cultures pre-catastrophe. A handful of these pockets were prepared and civilizations were rebuilt, then generated out of them on the major continents of the planet. The 'flood' stories have zoomed into empirical documentation in the last 200 years... in the last 30 years evidence accrues yearly. This would debunk the theories of Social Darwinism that posits we are always advancing through survival of the fittest. There's some pretty bullshit! It does give you a firmer grasp on the possibility that 'our fall from grace' was, after all, a natural phenomenon. And be warned; there are those who tentatively hold onto global fiscal power through the dispersion of deformed belief, much of this within the 'new age' community, that is based in and exploiting our fear and guilt. It prepares us to be better 'consumers'. No?

Earth sciences continue to grow with clarifying advances enabling us to begin to resolve some of our greatest 'myths' and better understand our story on planet Earth. As we begin to face the realistic challenges of survival for the health of planet, our fears about a coming 'planetary death' veil us to our opportunity for creating our world anew and shifting the current paradigm. The only way to establish survival is to relax into a personally resonant, deep spiritual intention and commitment for our future. There are many spiritual modalities... yet, FIRST we need to acknowledge and transcend our fear of apocalypse, or if you think it so; rapture. I think if Jesus is coming, certainly he IS pissed. No? Part of facing the deep fear of catastrophe is facing our responsibility for ourselves on every level of our being in a completeness... in essence, it ain't no Gods' fault or gift, it is our Self who determines our fates. I am the Captain of my Soul, I command my own life. I Am. I Am. You've heard?

A big clue: service. Let me say that again, SERVICE. When we are contentedly helping or providing a service to someone, to the community, we are in harmony with higher consciousness. You don't have to be Mother Teresa, just having the intention to be of service to someone when the opportunity arrives...makes all the difference. The way to achieve it is to link it intimately to what you wish to do with your life.... and if it is in integrity, no matter the job you are doing, you can do it with intended and true service to your family, neighbors and community. We must pull together. And never make the mistake of thinking that you do not matter, you are responsible for yourself!... everyone and everything matters! All My Relations!

The Cataclysm: 9500 B.C.E.

11,500 years ago a supernova [Phaeton - Marduk] in the Vela star system hurled debris through the solar system and approached Earth (a theory posited on astro-phenomenon during a period of supernovas occurring between 15,000 years to 11,000 years ago... mythology has provides us with the pinpoint) and the atmosphere was electrically supercharged as water and wind began to rise in temperature. The skies filled with all manner of fiery monsters that fell in devestation. For days it grew in fury until Phaeton began to appear in the sky looking as though it might pass over the North Pole... it moved inside of the Moon. Vortex winds arrived with it. Massive blocks of ice, hail, oceans of water fell from the skies. The atmosphere imploded with a reigning sound of terrifying force. Volcanic eruptions reigned all across the planet as the Earth's oceans were pulled gravitationally in opposite directions from the rotation close to the meteor. Humanity and all life forms on the surface of Gaia were subjected to electromagnetic storms that overwhelmed our bioelectric fields. [The designation of "Phaeton" is Ovid's mythological record and it represents the fragments of the supernova while KINGU - a moon of a destroyed planet; TIAMAT, from the AKKadian epic; Enuma Elish - named the mass that moved along with the supernova fragments toward Earth.] Worldwide traditions of storytelling remember this awesome event...diluvium venti! The geoidal deformation was consummate. Whole societies were lost. Whole civilizations receded and races dispersed in dire fear.

The day that nexus of planetary destruction hit us we were imprinted with our catastrophobia. We have already been there, and done that. We simply haven't processed it. And we must in order to survive our own self destructive trigger of a now bio degrading, pollutant dissolving, mutant evolving planet! Clarity is vital, knowing the science aligned with the legends becomes indispensable. Barbara Hand Clow's "Catastrophobia" is primer to understanding and clearing. Allan and Delair's "Cataclysm!" is too. It wouldn't hurt to page through "Hamlet's Mill", either.

We are being offered an exciting opportunity in (never before understood so clearly) self initiated evolution. It is up to each of us, individually, to make the changes that will provide the momentum towards a global change. Secluding ourselves within one or another political structure, fear based religious dogma, racial intolerance, fiscal greed and self or planetary destructive behavior patterns just won't cut it any longer. Demonstrative perfection is a misnomer. INTENTION is the key! We are already in an atmosphere of electrically and bio-electrically charged polarity. Polarities are pointing the way for us. YOU are the 'center' that must hold. And all you have to do is decide to.

Many years ago I spent a summer listening to Joe Campbell discuss the possibilities of a global cosmology. Daughters of Isis, inc. the organic adventure dedicated to fragrantly expressing this idea. Later, I read (like four times before I downloaded an understanding) The Mayan Factor by Jose Arguelles. In his (then) brilliant analysis of upcoming Harmonic Convergence and the eventual alignment it heralded, he suggested that the tools of an accelerated consciousness could be found in 'houses dedicated to re-opening and adjusting our senses'. DOI has grasped that idea and made it the banner above us. You can easily find the manifestation of this idea in many centers and shops across the planet. Seminars, workshops, etc... the tools are here for you to make use of! FIRST -

Become aware of this emotional, racial memory - malady: catastrophobia. By all means! go out and watch the "2012" movie... I can say from experience, it's a whopper of a good visual on what did happen, as far as the planetary reaction to Phaeton / KINGU. Allow yourself to experience and cleanse it. Move along... ground the intention to evolve the planet as it is healed. There IS, undoubtedly, a CHANGE on the horizon. Nature has brought it. Techno society is reaching out to the cosmos and in our enthusiastic momentum, we are destroying HOME. Recognizing it and responding to it, is our EARTH CHANGE. Winter Solstice 2012 will arrive, peak energies will align, folks prepared for the event will ground a galactic signal of change in ceremonial gratitude. Still, the sun will rise, the skies will reveal it's motion and then the stars will provide those who are in enough darkness to see it... that 'dark rift' birth passage of a new era in the Milky Way... and maybe, a glimpse of Hunab Ku...One Giver of Movement and Measure. The anchor of our galaxy.

Isis, finally, revealed.

And at some point in the evening as morning approaches, you will go to bed and fall asleep as the ghost of the old world begins to move on.

Links to purchase BHC's book: Catastrophobia! The Truth behind Earth Changes

Reading between the lines of the Maya calendar...

2009-11-15T17:29:00.000-05:00

Writing From Guatemala City - The world may not end two years from now, despite Internet predictions and this week's blockbuster disaster movie, "2012." On screen, the final day in the 5,126-year Maya calendar brings global destruction, and Los Angeles slides inexorably into the sea.

Here in the cradle of Maya civilization, however, shaman/priest Calixta Gabriel said Mother Earth -- Madre Tierra -- would suffer "hunger, wind and thunder," but rumors of its demise are greatly exaggerated. read more @ the Los Angeles Times

A blog you should read...over at MadMikesAmerica

2009-11-14T17:04:00.000-05:00

Before I polish off the rest of my "castastrophobia" piece... I'd like to share a blog from a fellow blog team member...OSO over at MadMikesAmerica blog. The piece is entitled "it all depends on your perspective" and it speaks to the common humanity in each of us. It opens the heart as well as the mind. Please give it a read.

A Charter for Compassion...TED conference

2009-11-12T14:09:00.000-05:00

Before I enter my Pt. 2 on Catastrophobia, I wanted to include this timely event from TED.com. A charter for compassion: Weeks from the Charter for Compassion launch, Karen Armstrong looks at religion's role in the 21st century: Will its dogmas divide us? Or will it unite us for common good? She reviews the catalysts that can drive the world's faiths to rediscover the Golden Rule.

Here is the posted charter now available at TED:

Charter for Compassion

The principle of compassion lies at the heart of all religious, ethical and spiritual traditions, calling us always to treat all others as we wish to be treated ourselves. Compassion impels us to work tirelessly to alleviate the suffering of our fellow creatures, to dethrone ourselves from the centre of our world and put another there, and to honour the inviolable sanctity of every single human being, treating everybody, without exception, with absolute justice, equity and respect.
It is also necessary in both public and private life to refrain consistently and empathically from inflicting pain. To act or speak violently out of spite, chauvinism or self-interest, to impoverish, exploit or deny basic rights to anybody, and to incite hatred by denigrating others — even our enemies — is a denial of our common humanity. We acknowledge that we have failed to live compassionately and that some have even increased the sum of human misery in the name of religion.
We therefore call upon all men and women ~ to restore compassion to the centre of morality and religion ~ to return to the ancient principle that any interpretation of scripture that breeds violence, hatred or disdain is illegitimate ~ to ensure that youth are given accurate and respectful information about other traditions, religions and cultures ~ to encourage a positive appreciation of cultural and religious diversity ~ to cultivate an informed empathy with the suffering of all human beings, even those regarded as enemies.
We urgently need to make compassion a clear, luminous and dynamic force in our polarized world. Rooted in a principled determination to transcend selfishness, compassion can break down political, dogmatic, ideological and religious boundaries. Born of our deep interdependence, compassion is essential to human relationships and to a fulfilled humanity. It is the path to enlightenment, and indispensible to the creation of a just economy and a peaceful global community.

I support this charter and the minds who gathered to bring it to us. I hope you find some relationship with it, too.

2012 CATASTROPHOBIA Pt 1

2009-11-09T13:29:00.002-05:00

I hope you watched the (above) video and enjoyed. It's meant to bring you some perspective in listening as you read this blog. So....

Catastrophobia! It's a serious situation, man. It's enjoying a steady growth. It may be a phenomenon you think of as 'rapture', judgment day, apocalypse, end times / end of days or just The End. You know what I'm talking about...yes? Every other disaster movie focuses on it, unscrupulous politicians (Republicans) and evangelicals / new age prosperity or ascension cons use it to exert a sense of false virtue through it, survivalists are becoming popular life coaches under the guise of it, extreme survivalist cults are flourishing once again, personal psychic / spiritual guides are 'teaching' expensive protocols of ascension beyond the event and someone between dimensions keeps hiding my set of the mothership keys!   I think you 'get' where I'm heading here... or maybe you're wondering if Gwen has 'lost it'? Not at all... I know just where I'm going, and I think you'll find some interesting information in it.

The awful truth is; plenty of morally conscious, intelligent people are seriously thinking, "What if?" and what should I responsibly be doing for myself, my family and friends? I am annoyed that good people are suffering from and being exploited because of their catastrophobia. It's more than just the fear of death, its the fear of a horrible, painful, mass death of whole societies; a phobia based in a race memory that we (humanity) are challenged to conquer as the evolutionaries of our consciousness and in the establishing of a planetary consciousness.

This term was coined by Barbara Hand Clow in her ground breaking "Catastrophobia" book. GrandMother Sky presented this information in a comprehensive, thorough presentation and discussion of the facts. She is very precise in basing her conclusions on cutting edge astronomical data, advancing archeological results and emerging new sciences that explore what academics have book contemplated for too long... field students and concept instinctual teachers / professionals in the relative fields are reinterpreting history using the symbolism and legends of myth to guide them. And they are coming up 'history' shattering results!

Our new conscious awareness will trigger the evolution of all species on the planet, that is the actual dawn of this new age. It's a threshold crossing test for planet Earth. In order for us to achieve a global consciousness that will actively penetrate and interact within the planetary Lightbody; the Noosphere, thereby enabling a cosmic consciousness, we must face the race memory deeply buried in each of us, of an Earth shattering catastrophe in our planetary history, during the current Holocene period! That will release us from this overbearing fear. Remembering that we have been here before. We have already gone through it. We don't have to go though it again. Yet; this multicultural / social malady grows and the cons are out there feeding on it, feeding a global dissonance; mega-fear! Can you feel it? It's swiftly being catalyzed by social developments of the day: overpopulation, financial collapse, greed, political and religious corruption, genocide, environmental rebellion (aka Earth Changes) / natural cycles of renewal for the planet, etc. From pole shifts or flips to "Torsion Field" physics (oh dear, Hoagland has really lost it), a collision with "Planet X" or the massive solar shutdown of our electronics grid... fear based ideologies embracing a mass phenomenon of 'ascension' to another reality or into awaiting 'motherships' or the evangelical riot of greed and murder masked in 'franchise' pastors sucking the life out the third world poor...it all begs the question: why would you choose fear over the bright promise of a new planetary consciousness?   Right HERE on Mother Earth? Because it's going to require hard work, on our part to actually ascend the planet?

Tep Zepi - Frist Times - the Golden Age of the Gods:
The ancient Egyptians (presumably the survivors of cataclysmic-ally destroyed Atlantis) referred to Tep Zepi as the time before, a pre-cataclysmic time of civilization that was advanced and consciously anchored in non-warfare oriented co-existence and trade among all societies. The cataclysmic event that destroyed this (mostly) resonate / healthy human state of existence was distorted by the surviving generations as the 'great flood' or Noachian Deluge... some vengeful god's punishment of a sinful antediluvian human race for being advanced beyond 'their allowed status' or try on; happily consuming the fruit from the Tree of Knowledge... a species shell shocked en masse by the cataclysmic event...sufferers of catastrophobia, hopelessly fear based in their recovery from being bombed back to the caves and the birth of monotheism! Or just plain old placing our personal power and responsibility outside of ourselves and into the other. While occult and esoteric mysteries strove to retain the essential knowledge and previous evolution of humanity's accomplishment, the lack of survivors seems to have ensured our de-evolution. We de-volved into penitentiary and propitiatory practices that usually became tied to precessional equinoctial timelines. Guilt, penance and sacrifice exposed us to an assumed guilt over an Earth shattering cosmic event. It's the old religious softshoe; we assume guilt - explaining the need for a retributional catastrophe / we make voluntary penance - atone for this sin / make our sacrifice - hope for Divine cleansing.   Like man, I don't know about you... but I'm more cosmically adept than that! I'm tired for taking responsibility through guilt! Hello?!! Time to move on...

The catastrophe also explains the shutdown of our gray matter. The shock was too much to live with so we physically re-routed our thought capacities in masking of our genetic memory from our conscious awareness... we just couldn't handle it.   You know, 'pay no attention to that man behind the curtain!' Perhaps we are being spiritually guided to REdiscover our essential state of being... a fully working brain to access our subtle body information and a REactivation of our full DNA capacity? What think you? Possible? With these restored faculties couldn't we individually and group reconnect with our cosmic neighbors?

PART 2 WILL INCLUDE A SUMMARY OF THE ACTUAL EVENT... the mythology surrounding it and our present dilemma in healing it's historical effects.

visual meditation

2009-11-08T18:37:00.000-05:00

taking Sunday easy...........

something found...

2009-11-07T14:02:00.000-05:00

very cool from the 'ravings of semi-sane madwoman' a very cool place to find amusement!

Are you kidding me? Really??!!

2009-10-31T14:54:00.000-04:00

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Well folks.... Happy Samhain anyhooo! Welcome the Holly King!

Summer's end...into the season of judgment.

2009-10-29T13:20:00.000-04:00

Lets face it, don't we all stand back, just a little aside, making judgments on 'fellow practitioners' or presenters and think, "oh, man! That's just bullshit! or How can they say that with a straight face? or even, Man, no integrity here!" and yet so many of us remain mute. There is some heavy, heavy polarity around. Thank you Saturn, now; might you get your ass into calmer waters!!?? It's not like we didn't know the Fifth World was coming... nor that these days would be stormy. The sameness in each passing day tends to leave us veiled as to the larger shifts occurring and the necessity of making the profane and the divine common in our awareness...now, more than ever. Someone wrote or channeled here recently that 'making chaos the catalyst in our evolution' was the way of sanity. But is chaos becoming mundane to us, too? I'm seriously wondering. Seriously.

Few in our community are not hot topic-ing the incident at Angel Valley outside of Sedona. James Ray is on a 'hot seat' over his integrity. His capabilities are loosened onto his clay feet. Folks are in debate and it is, after all, a public forum. There is an outstanding piece from the Street Prophet shakti over at Daily Kos on this incident. How many within our subtle Nation (metaphysics) are true crackpots and how many of us simply can't stretch the envelop of our imagination to cross the veils? It's a toss. A long time ago, when my path was beginning to open up for me, an honest friend gave me sage advice. He told me that there is always CONFORMATION. You must ask for it and look for it and be ready to define and resolve it... there is always conformation. By conformation I am describing an inner resource for validation. A knowing you must develop to help you guide yourself into greater Spiritual and characteristic growth. Those of you who know me understand that I'm not so good with the 'follow the leader'. I know that there are many valid pathways / disciplines / 'ologies' to explore into our personal evolution... and I am equally convinced that we must define them individually. As in: take complete responsibility for ourselves. And making judgments is a huge part of that personal evolution. It separates the weary from the bold and wise from cowen.

We choose the wisdom of the Ancients / Ancestors to help guide us... I companion their wisdom with all the new interpretation and discovery I can find... that includes channeled information, the swift evolution of physics, the rediscovery of why and how ancient megalithic and monumental structure is clarifying our ability to reach beyond ourselves into the cosmos and our ability to detect, for ourselves, what is or what might be a Big Con here at Home. Actually, it's so much. Information is flowing at a quicksilver rate! There is a lot to keep up with! Who of us doesn't depend on our conscious resonance with the planet to guide us right now? Tapping into the ever strengthening 'planetary grid' is vital right now. I think its helping us to ground our own individual processes of growth and to open our larger awareness right now. Your value of your own 'intuition' and 'instincts' is part of this mass phenomenon. So, it stands to reason, that the opposition / polarity of that characteristic is just as vital right now. You know, like a 'follow this leader' kind of disallowance of your own ideals or values. It's ripe in every human venue. Got people all fired up, too. The lesson in all of this is recycling all around us; take responsibility for yourself... right or wrong, the risk you take in declaring yourself and your own ideas and values is priceless. You can't go to a seminar or workshop to learn it. You might not easily understand why you are not 'feeling' or 'believing' what the rest of the crowd does... yet it's important to honor your inner self more than ever just as you respect the choices of others. Your courage will eventually bear the fruit of an understanding and a new awareness. The 'authentic you' is being marketed and sold at an alarming rate. Whether it's in creating a larger bank account or developing your 'psychic gifts' or engaging your warp drive into the mothership, there is a task you have in undertaking any 'teaching'; does it resonate with you? Or are you afraid of being left out of something?

There are so many vital, integrity driven teachers, explorers, presenters, authors, etc. out there right now to help us determine our way! And equally, the carnival barkers of the new age movement are asking for your 'faith' and your money. So do the good teachers! You are challenged to discern what is and is not going to serve your own growth and what is 'in integrity'. As Samhain approaches, the end of the Wheel of the Year beckons us into the darkness, into the season of judgment... and we judge ourselves.

Samhain comes and now among the Ancestors we call on, an honest friend abides, Ted Andrews. His sage wisdom so many years ago gave me a 'rule of thumb' to work with; ask for conformation! The community contracts in his loss. Still, the Summerlands are more merry... the wee ones are delighted to see him, Anpu has gathered his familiar companions to walk with him as his loved ones prepare the feast of happy reunion. An apple, a pink candle, a Great Horned Owl feather and Spirit Guide Oil on my alter on Samhain to honor Ted and bid him happiest journey onward.

Happy New Year! from Daughters of Isis, inc. and the blender...

Film ... the Goddess always speaks.... AGORA

2009-10-12T09:07:00.000-04:00

My President is a Ghost Dancer!

2009-10-12T07:58:00.003-04:00

"Let me be clear, I do not view it as a recognition of my own accomplishments, but rather as an affirmation of American leadership on behalf of aspirations held by people in all nations."

Obama said he was aware that "throughout history, the Nobel Peace Prize has not just been used to honor specific achievement, it's also been used as a means to give momentum to a set of causes.” President Obama’s response to the win.

My American Indian teacher, (now Ancestor), Tommy Spotted Calf, used a technique of “match this to that” to introduce me to a shamans’ way of opening the vision and reading the signs / portents surrounding me; a way to eventually define and begin to work with my own personal Medicine. He told me to apply it liberally with everything and everyone. In other words, if when I woke up the first thing I saw were lizards crawling on the deck outside my glass door…what did that indicate? What was the Mother Earth teaching me? To make it short and sweet without going into some ‘talk’ on Medicine ways and sich, it told me to stop, remember and pay attention to the dreams I had before waking [among many things, the most well understood ‘Medicine’ of lizard is dreaming]. Tommy was what many academics, archeologists primarily, called a ‘treasure hunter’. Tommy could read the marks, petroglyphs, all the signs the left by the Old Ones and was instrumental in helping them ‘find’ sites while he and his wife, my Onandaga Spirit Mother, Linda, would hold the site for Indigenous Peoples to claim for protection. Tommy took me places, into still unknown sites, on journeys meant only for description in other venues, to teach me lessons about our eternal nature using the Traditions held among the Nations. Tommy was full blooded Chickasaw. Linda was the daughter of the last Medicine man of all Medicine men among the Onandoga in upstate New York…close to my birthplace in Rochester.

One evening as we sat on the dock behind my family home in south FL Tommy casually asked me if I knew about the wood carver out the western Nations? I did not. He asked if I had heard of him by the name of Wovoka? I had still no idea. A Paiute, Wovoka became what was sort of a, in his day, Sia Baba who could manifest materialistically and defy death. Clearly he was a Medicine man - magician. Well versed in Christian theology, also. In the mid to late 1800’s Wovoka represented a Messiah to the many captured and interred Nations of American Indians because he introduced them to the ritual of the Ghost Dance. It spread throughout the Nations, chiefly with the Lakota Peoples as a ceremony that would resurrect the nobility and prosperity of the People (Dine), a reclamation of Turtle Island to the People. Ghost Dancing was outlawed and the spectacular betrayal of the US government at Wounded Knee memorializes the Ghost Dance tradition. (It should be noted here that it was couple of the Miniconjou who, against the ideals of Jack Wilson WOVOKA, instigated violent overthrow of the white captors.) The Ghost Dancer will dance to bring about change, to share his vision of a new world with his Nation. The Ghost Dancer’s path is danger posted and represents the opposition to all that is unjust and diminishing to the Spirit of a People. The Ghost Dancer visualizes what can be and works toward it no matter the consequences or danger represented in overwhelming odds.

Recovering from surgery in August of 08 I was bedridden and a bit into the ‘vision’ as a painkiller might assist a journey into the worlds that exist in between. My eyes beheld a Ghost Dancer. And when he spoke, well, by gods, he kicked the tires and lit the fires! He asked; “All you all fried up?” I found I was, for the first time since my days in Ithaca. The very next day I eschewed bed rest and walked into the Lake Worth Obama-Biden campaign office and began to stomp, collect votes and stand by the street and proclaim he was the man for the job. I blogged for Obama. I still do over at change.gov. I registered new voters. I stood in the village square and asked people to take a pamphlet and read about him. I answered questions about him. I educated myself to all of his issue policies and I cheered, exclaimed in the street the night he won. I was mostly sober. But hey… we turned FL BLUE! It is still a time of Hope. And that’s where he captured me and where I still stand today, with Hope.

Barack Obama has raised the consciousness of the whole planet towards HOPE. The least he could receive is the Nobel. My opinion. He is a Ghost Dancer.

In a private ceremony in Montana last May, the President was adopted into the Black Eagle family of a tribe and given the Crow Tribal name Awe Kooda Bilaxpak Kuuxshish, or "One Who Helps People Throughout the Land."

From the Lakota Ghost Dance song Translation:

It is your father coming, it is your father coming,

A spotted eagle is coming for you,

A spotted eagle is coming for you.

Many Lives....Now is the Time for Self Mastery!

2009-08-23T11:07:00.001-04:00

My metaphysical sensibility tells me that the first law of Vulcan metaphysics is true:

Nothing unreal exists.

Something else is ultimately real; you never know what's around the corner.

When earnest people of good spirit and intentions approach or inform me of the surrounding Motherships in our solar system at this time holding a hierarchy of Ascended Masters of the Great White Brotherhood... well, I fall back on that Missourian instinct that pushes past every imaginary and visionary portion of limbic mind to soundly say; show me. I am no empiricist, in that what my physical eyes don't see isn't there...I have an active third eye to provide me with vision! There is essential truth in the Mothership counsils and appearances. I open my heartmind through ever stimulate imagination and a hope - desire to explore my 'reality' in broader terms. The thing is, I've often heard that these were the vehicles of rescue and removal, our ascension from Earth...? My response is; I love my Home. It's a recreational planet! While I can dream of etheral beauties in distant galaxies and solar systems, none can compare (and most are imaginatively relative to) the awesome wonders of my Home planet , Mother Earth. Why would I want to desert her? Not to pitch in and clean her up? To not be here... let me say that again... to miss the greatest epoch ever? We stand at the arc of a new age. And me, I'm all for bringing it in ... halleluyer! And in that aspect;

I keep thinking it boils down to taking responsibility, for our Self. The term to be considered here is "I Am". The larger responsibilities... like on all levels of our being. At a time when most of the inter-dimensional conversations are touting a massive spiritual awakening, a global consciousness to trigger the Earthly transformation, the primary messaging is essential responsibilities, beginning with the Self, not with the "Other". All of the many lives, the karmic walk we choose to take through each incarnation, are coming Home, too. Dharma? Certainly possible! Ascension? I think of it as ascending up into my complete-ness, all lives, one new master or Soul in body...the Bodhisattva of mySelf; the term "I AM" is a reference to "the name that God gave Himself in Exodus 3:14". That means me.

I have always been instinctively, intuitively, attracted to the great Occultists. HPB, in particular, and her "Isis Unveiled" captured me at 17. Through the Occultists of the last two centuries, the Ascended Masters have made constant debut in several spiritual communities. The term "I AM" is a reference to the name that God gave to Himself. Blavatsky drank with St. Germain and listened with great intention - comprehension to El Moyra, eventually Theosophy was born. Guy Ballard discoursed the 'I Am' presence with St. Germain. There has been much cult making, like CUT. The contemporary 'Ascension' movement has become a new age juggernaut bringing hundreds of Ascended Masters into conclaves with many teachings anchored in the Seven Rays. The Seven Rays are ageless tools for a new understanding of the Self, ultimate evolution. Its easy to correspond their origins to chroma, the colors of our physical world. The goal has developed more fully in the last century, at this timely evolutionary shifting, towards attainment of a Self Mastery and true bodily 'ascension', embodiment of the Soul in completeness. The Ascended Masters, so numerous, have attained this. Masters, who walk the Earth Mother today, are not actually considered 'ascended' Masters in the original sense... Communication between an individual and the various Ascended Ones / Masters has become a more commonly demonstrative phenomenon, through channels. HPB would say 'mediums'.

I am an aromachologist with the bright challenge of creating a fragrant quality of mind for The Mahatmas and their Archangelic companions. So, I'm approaching a this very widely interpreted subject matter and doing my best to choose the most correct correspondent scents, the right 'ethnobotany' to employ. So, I'm learning what quality of mind the Masters represent. I'm teaching mySelf to connect with each Master in elemental, sensual ways. A great deal of my job is to research and write out the ethnobotany, the uses of the scent and description of the correspondent properties. Each of us has a personal threshold of integrity. Mine involves bringing the 'actuality' of the Masters into my own consciousness. As I approach this task, this privilege, I learning many different interpretations of Ascended Masters. I must open my third eye, dropping my reservations based in the 'rescue aspect', and find my personal path to each Mahatma ... so you see, you never know what is around the next corner! I've turned a corner into finally sitting down to blending the Mahatmas. I had the Archangels. My big challenge? Ascension, assisted with a fragrant quality of mind.........because nothing unreal exists....through the lens of the Self.

Gathering the Church of Me...

2009-08-02T14:33:00.000-04:00

Someone wearing a ‘collar’ once angrily branded me as sacrilegious. I was only a child, I was nine. After making me smile for my profanity, the residual child fears began to morph into a beginning place of self search, to define a ‘spirit’ to cling to, like ‘the rest’. I really did try my best to be open as I honestly searched and naturally wondered …

Who am I; really? What world or non-world did I really come from? What existed beyond my momentary consciousness and could my dreams answer me if I understand them? How could I begin to gather the truth?

I just wasn’t much good at ‘taking it on faith’ or blindly believing the grown ups. I would ask for some kind of conformation… like; what’s the science? Because the science that ‘collar’ taught me didn’t quite jibe with the ‘facts’ in his catechism. I trusted my own instincts more readily than I ever could the priest who assured me my beginning was sinful and my end would come to pain and regret if I didn’t ‘believe’ what he told me. Did you ever feel the same?

I felt one clarity or truth for myself… that I wasn't alone, my family was with me in some kind of spirit to support me with a comfort that would not abandon me…ever. And I began to gather, there. My GrandMother was with me. Right over my left shoulder, trying to help me understand the impossible and encourage my search to explain it for myself. And if she was there, there were 'others' who were kind and loving, there to guide me. I could feel them and sense their hearts' encouraging me to believe what was true for me. They gave me a gift... a knowledge of Spirit.

It took me a few years to determine my direction(s) … and while I mused, for several years, I filled my ache for knowing in collecting the stories of our Ancestors. I experienced the details of character quality from my own living archetypes like my mom and other adults I admired. Yet; so much more often, I grasped those great, world shaping lessons of life from the Ancestors; our grandmothers and grandfathers, who we agree are Gods and Goddesses. Their stories always nurture and guide me.

I've never been Wiccan...though I respect and admire essential Wiccan-ism and what it stirs and evolves among it's dedicated. I self compliment daily, using many blessings sacred in Wiccan Tradition. I'm not really a Medicine Woman, though I am an adopted Medicine Sister in more than one Native American Nation. Every day I call on my 'directions' to surround me before I sit at my bench to work with the energetic tools of their tribal Traditions. I'm not near OTO neophyte, but I have dear old friends who design their lives in that ceremonialist expression ... and I take the audacious liberty of borrowing from those rites of enhancing awareness in the same tradition that they have collected and borrowed from so many disciplines of spirit and holism before them. Goddess knows I'm no real Caribbean mambo... but I make a fair juju / root worker and I apply the joyful, strengthening cosmic-rootforce energy of Voudou to the work at my bench. I'm fascinated with the Dreamtime stories that describe our creation in the Aborigines Peoples' cosmology and I'm determined to discover a personal translation of their wisdom to help me, as ever, with understanding my own dreamtime. Not a smidgen of ancient dreamer in my formal training, just a few precious conversations with Medicine Sisters keeping the legacy of the Dreamtime culture. I am marking my time using a stellar / cosmic shamanism with the help of Maya Daykeepers who are as vital and skillful as their Ancestors were... this is a needful, timely discipline ... one we are excited to grasp! My paternal Ancestors were Druids and I'm conscious of their presence. I am a Celt. I suppose I should emphasize that one, I AM A CELT. I've relied on that description for over twenty years. If you call me a witch, I will turn around and answer you, though I might do it with a healthy, developed animus. My sacred site is unconfined, it is Gaia. My awareness of 'heaven' is Elysian in nature and can be as daunting as sitting at the Scales of Justice where Anpu will collect my heart to listen to the stories I have lived ... while Ma'at judges my adventures. I nurture a vision of Bali Hai, just past the sea's horizon where I might continue to study, to experiment, to travel away from and back to ... but most of all, retain who I am here and Now and perhaps seamlessly merge myself with all of the me's in All That Is_ this is the Church of Me, my inner Home. It's where the journey has arrived so far...

In the Church of Me, the only true confromaton is that kindness and love are the greatest tools for evolution I have. All lessons lead away or towards that holistic combination…kindness and love.

This is how I begin to gather my harvest, defining my spiritual adventure. I call it, understand it as my church.

Happy Lammas.

Om mi padra gay bash...

2009-07-11T11:05:00.001-04:00

What would demonstrate a nirvana that excludes anyone on the bias of sexuality? Or politics? Or where you might extend patronage by way of $? My point is; I'm really shocked that the most popular yoga guru in India has become a virulent vocal against the celebrated new gay rights. WTF? I mean the fella gets all bad Buddha on it. Bad Buddha say, gay can be cured... through yoga. HUH? Now, hold on to your dorgie there, because so too did an astrologer of note in Delhi. Whaz up with this?
Swami Baba Ramdev filed the petition in India's supreme court, charging that the lower court erred in legalizing "unnatural sex acts.” He said that the “congenital defect” of homosexuality could be treated through yoga, breathing exercises, and meditation techniques. In an interview with the Times of India, Swami Ramdev said homosexuality caused "mental bankruptcy" and was "against God and creation." Earlier this week, Suresh Kaushal, an astrologer, filed a petition to challenge the overturning of the 148-year-old ban. He claimed that the traditions of India do not permit homosexuality, and said the court decision would contribute to the spread of HIV/AIDS.

We live just past the eclipse point of tired old religious dogmas. Yet dogma invades even the karmic dharmic religious philosophies of the Mid East. Patriarch-ality strikes again! Its easy to historically trace homophobia from Christianity in the West, Islam in the Mid East. The ancient social bedrock of Greco-Roman / Mesopotamian lifestyles and beliefs viewed homosexuality as a variation of sexuality... rather naturally. Hey now!, didn't a Greek "poof" found the last, greatest civilized city of antiquity? Alexandria? Btw, he conquered much of the civilized world, squashing Persia flatly. Granted, the measure of the man (or woman) was taken at point of blade, still; Alexander stands out as one of the all time most celebrated warrior-gay. And he died in Babylon, a heroic myth of shinning youth and the beginning of the Hellenistic period which combined Greek with Middle Eastern and Indian cultures. I missed the subtext on Hindu homophobia.

Culturally speaking, studying Ayurvedic practices and it's partner spirit of yoga ... damned if I can correlate yoga, ayurveda or the basic enLightened healing techniques and practices they establish to any address of or form of 'cure ratio' for homosexuality. [Ditto on the Magi, too. Astrological bias?!] Never once observed it in relationship to santana dharma (the eternal truth) or evolving magnetic solar / stellar inflluences. Yes, well... even in the global community of a New Age and self enLightenment that eagerly grasp the ancient techniques and teachings of yoga there contains those wiht bias against the human rights of GLBT. So what soma is the Swami Ramdev offering his students? (or would that be disciples?)

Getting back to the point past eclipse, we are challenged with evolving our consciousness to develop a new clarity in personal integrity and values that embrace, not discourage, the personal choices of others...because we are tasked to clearly develop our own personal authenticity. But as metaphysics and mysticism go mainstream, great discernment is called for or we bring along outmoded separatism, fear-based self-identities that keep manifest dogmatic illusions consistent in lack and limitation. At the heart of yoga and it's eastern spirituality is the quest for self illumination, the ability to give and receive love, to extend ourselves beyond the material into the eternal spirit of All That Is and manifest self healing, genuine kindness and an ever evolving state of awareness. New consciousness. Swami Ramdev is pronouncing on tantric yoga. Through tantric study and practice, we come to understand that we are defining our own self identity in seeking out sexual commitment and pleasure.

Tantra is the practice resulting from an ancient He Said, She Said between Shiva and Shakati dedicated to erotica and the guiltless pleasure of expressing a self identified sexuality in a sincere relationship with another. The shackles of judgement and fear were unlocked in Their conversation. ["Expressing love for God/Goddess as manifest through one's Beloved, was considered a high art-form, one of sixty-four arts every conscious person was invited to master. It was viewed as a sacred sacrament which would bring deep bonding to the partners in spiritual, mental, emotional, and physical union, and generate a tangible spiritual force they called harmony to permeate the home, the community, and the world." - Alec Evason]

Why do Swami Ramdev and Suresh Kaushal want to judge any one else's healthy sexuality? Hindu mysticism and mythology are not vacant of erotic sexuality between same gender. But more to a point, why this kind of fear and judgement in modern day India? Tantra is the healing practice of sexuality, nurturing self resolutions of identity in shared ecstasy.

Hate is rampent. California clarifies this, Florida anti-gay adoption laws proclaim it, arresting gay men for meeting after work on public access Mormon steps in Salt Lake City and sharing an embrace and kiss examplify it. While Swami Ramdev and Suresh Kaushal are not the whole of the (thought of) New Age community... it shocks me to wonder.... how fast is time accelerating and is it pushing past this kind of ignorance? I think you might see where I'm going here.... Geesh! As the wise man said, 'three steps forward, one step back'. My personal spirituality does not embrace this kind of bigotry. And it fumes me to think that such ancient enLightenment is so misunderstood by those who would be called, Swami or master.... Geesh.

they say, Suicide is Painless...

2009-07-09T16:05:00.000-04:00

As the song goes;
"Suicide is painless. It brings on many changes. And I can take or leave it if I please…"
That is the name of the M*A*S*H theme song:
“Suicide Is Painless”… did you know?

There is a bill before Congress, the Safe Schools Improvement Act, a bill sponsored by Rep. Linda Sanchez, D-Calif., that would allow states to use federal grant money to gather data on and respond to bullying, as well as require schools to notify parents when their children are being bullied. For the many families whose children suffered under the taunts and violence of bullies, suicide has not been so painless. It changes everything in life. The reasoning that ‘suicide is painless’ is in its [thought to be] closure of emotional and mental pain too painful to hold. In some cultures, it has been cast as a ritual of spiritual appeasement. In some it is ‘pathway’ in taking responsibility for dishonor, mistakes or crimes. There is no end to number of reasons humanity has conceived to allow suicide. There is no sanity among any of those reasons… of course, that is a personal opinion. And there are those who would step further and condemn it as ‘the coward’s way out’. I don’t think there is any sanity in that judgement, either. The impending bill before Congress would address the crisis of suicide in our public school systems. Here are some numbers to consider:

Suicides outnumbered homicides (20,308) by 3 to 2.

Teen suicide was the 3rd leading cause of death among young adults and adolescents 15 to 24 years of age, following unintentional injuries and homicide. The rate was 9.9/100,000 or .01%.

The adolescent suicide rate among youth ages 10-14 was 1.3/100,000 or 272 deaths among 20,910,440 children in this age group. The gender ratio for this age group was 3:1 (males: females).

The teen suicide rate among youth aged 15-19 was 7.9/100,000 or 1,611 deaths among 20,271,312 teenagers in this age group. The gender ratio for teenage group was 5:1 (males: females).

The numbers presented say this: Suicide seemed painless. I will take it and leave my fears behind me.

Imagine waking up every morning in deep fear of facing your day and the fear you know will fill it. Imagine you think everyone who knows you, except maybe your parents (and then that might not be true), they all see you as a failure or a freak. They publicly torment you all day long with this judgement. One or more people actually attack you physically and threaten to kill you over it. You are afraid to think, afraid to breathe, afraid to tell, afraid to live...you are afraid of who you are and you can’t tell because it will be worse for you. Suicide is painless. Can you remember a time when you knew you were in trouble and the consequences of your actions kept you in a deep fear that overwhelmed you? Well, hell, I do. Stepping down off the plane that sent me home for a school suspension, I shook rattled and rolled towards the stern face of my Mom waiting on the tarmac to collect me. Boy! was I gonna get it! Can you remember that kind of overwhelming fear? I can reach out to it in memory and realize how powerful it was, even though I might not grasp its' full effect in my present moment.

Please support this measure before Congress. Send your Congresswoman or Congressman an email, a phone call, a message of support for this important bill. Our children are leaving us ... they find that suicide is painless. It brings them the change their desperation asks for. They could not leave it.

Times seem so volatile, so challenging and needful. I know I've thought, in the hour of the Wolf, late at night when I could not sleep and was afraid that I was not what I dreamt I would be, that I don't have the money I need, that I am a failure, that I never accomplish enough... many of us face these pauses in our self esteem... I have thought that if I could only go to sleep and forget it all... and of course, I was in that moment considering suicide. In discussing with friends, I know that its a normal conclusion... when things seem so very desperate. While I may stay depressed for a while, I have not clung to it ... so far, so good, eh? Through the early morning fog I did see and things were revealed to me. Suicide might seem painless, it brings on many changes...yet, changes I would not be pleased with. I am an adult. I don't really remember thinking of suicide when I was a child. I do remember being 'picked on' in parochial school. I do remember feeling an overbearing judgement from authority figures and peers. Its in my survival of those elements of my childhood that qualities in my character now allow me to face instead of flee. I can't vouch for the strength or the intelligence or the good humor nor the sanity that I may face my problems with... but I do face them and aspire towards a strength of character still developing within me. Children don't have the cement of time and experience to face and not to flee... they require help, nurture and forgiveness. The latter there, is the most vital.
Forgive me for being afraid.

Self forgiveness is what always makes the difference. Once we understand this, we still face the revolving necessity of it all our life long. Our children need our forgiveness... it will address their pain.
Support this bill...please.

The lingering Inquisition...Catholicism dissolving.

2009-07-02T14:37:00.000-04:00

Most medical doctors still tend to treat a patient exactly like a machine mechanic treats a non functioning mechanism inside a machine. Nurses, on the other hand, tend to treat a patient using some art of healing demonstrating human compassion, quick to touch. A nurse considers the body a demonstration of the mind, which is ultimately influenced by the patient’s spiritual heartiness. For the nurse, a physical malady or dis-ease is the result of his or her patient manifesting a symptom of what she or he is in place to address; how they ‘feel’ and what they might ‘believe’ that is causing this symptom. An excellent example of our evolution!

So, here’s a parallel....
… the priests and nuns in the Catholic church. [here's my classical parochial school education ...] Priests and nuns reveal dogma vs a nurtured, genuine spiritual expression… often so subtly that it sneaks by everyday observation. Substitute this polarization with this clarity: hell and damnation vs joy and enthusiasm. [Well, unless you have watched the fabulous period piece “Doubt”]. There are (and always were) exceptional priests... many eventually De-Frocked of their ecclesiastical career. The enLightened truth concerning most nuns evades our ‘historical’ observation for their overall metaphysical awareness and dynamic application of it. [Not that, generations of Irish nuns did not take mechanical dogma and pervert it into the application of slavery, spiritual terrorism and life long cruelty, no I don’t deny that. It happened in Boston and countless other communities where orders of nuns oversee the Catholic charities / institutions. It’s there and it’s clear.] Yet, when I was under the near daily guidance of nuns, young and old, their supervision (Super-Vision) provided both polarities of religious dogma and an enLightened enthusiasm of the ‘world without end’. Every one of the priests’ in my youth was a religious mechanic. Under their supervision ‘world without end’ generally meant that you might earn little likelihood of attaining heaven though you would experience an afterlife of certain hell. You better believe it Boy-0! The dysfunctional religious discipline of Catholic dogma is seriously straining under this intensifying commencement into the New Age. The new Inquisition's are underway, targeting 'in-house' women of faith. We are evolving beyond the time of belief and entering into the time of knowledge; a time of personal authenticity that Judeo-Christian / Catholic-Islamic based religion actively dissuades and purges from an individual. Tithing is being questioned and the congregations are beginning to define their personal Divinity. Nurturing unique spiritual enthusiasm is a gift of love. Today's seminaries and convents, aged in secular education and conformity, are in such rapid deterioration that the church is visibly dissolving and working desperately to captivate youth for the ‘calling’. Add to that the regular, shocking, exploitive pedophilia and vow breaking scandal, its' resulting public expose’, the Vatican's non-responsiveness to this massive cruelty, and the ‘personal calling’ becomes a vanishing act in Catholic society.
Can you say “karma”?

But if this is the Karma, then what is the Dharma?
Just as the nursing community worldwide has prepared our modern path into energetic medicine to compliment the mechanical / allopathic medicine… there is a balancing Dharma for the Judeo-Christian / Catholic-Islamic community. It struggles to be a cultural quest for personal authenticity - spiritual expression in some form of balance...the transcension of modern religion. The new energetics medicines have played a part in the cross-corespondent Dharmic shifting of the church, too. Catholic nuns have come under a new scrutiny by the Vatican, [the current Apostolic Visitation] here in the United States. One of the most egregious sins' the Sisters, Mothers or Mother Superiors-Generals under this investigation are accused of is the practice and teaching of a healing technique you and I are very familiar with: Reiki. It's just one pry-bar the American Bishop's Conference is using to instigate this purge. Self expression is the basic reason. Nuns don't seem like nuns no mo... to the misogynist authority of Rome and it's church. So they have re-issued an updated MALLEVS MALEFICARVM (the infamous Witches Hammer instruction manual of torturing a women into a confession of 'witchcraft' used in the purge of women healers throughout the Vatican territories during the 15th, 16th and 17th centuries), as new questioneers and interview techniques.... Nothing ever changes in Rome?

Meet Mother Mary Clare Millea, Mother Superior General of the Sacred Heart of Jesus. She is the Vatican insider (a true rarity for a female), in charge of the most intensive thrust of this Apostolic Visitation; to “look into the quality of the life” of women’s religious institutes in the American Catholic church. A vague instruction masking the antiquated Inquisitorial code; root out = attack / condem and purify = well...here I defer to whatever reality will be the outcome, since burning at the stake, crushing by stone or drowning might be leagally prosecuted. Another reality faces Mother Mary Clare; Sister Sandra M. Schneiders_professor emerita of New Testament and spirituality at the Jesuit School of Theology at Berkeley, in California and those smiliarly aligned within the evolving 'sisterhood'. The idea that the Vatican and some American bishops are trying to shift them back into living in convents, wearing habits or at least identifiable religious garb, ordering their schedules around daily prayers and working primarily in Roman Catholic institutions, like schools and hospitals...essentially reversion to religious chattle... has galvanized Sister Sandra and her sisters in sympathy.

[While some nuns say they are grateful that the Vatican is finally paying attention to their dwindling communities (a grouping of ladies who cleave to the isolationism that 'convent' implies), many fear that the real motivation is to reel in American nuns who have reinterpreted their calling for the modern world. In the last four decades since the reforms of the Second Vatican Council, many American nuns stopped wearing religious habits, left convents to live independently and went into new lines of work: academia and other professions, social and political advocacy and grass-roots organizations that serve the poor or promote spirituality. A few nuns have also been active in organizations that advocate changes in the church like ordaining women and married men as priests.
“They think of us as an ecclesiastical work force,” said Sister Sandra M. Schneiders. “Whereas we are religious, we’re living the life of total dedication to Christ, and out of that flows a profound concern for the good of all humanity. So our vision of our lives, and their vision of us as a work force, are just not on the same planet.”] NY Times. The Independence of these women of faith demonstrates a new personal awareness and feminine spiritual presence that anchors a firm resolution among women like Sister Sandra... to enter an almost surely excommunicative stance of non compliance to this 'visitation' and to stand their ground in a hope for the evolution of their faith, in the church that shepherds it.

The Goddess advances in evolving communities once the provenience of male dominated religiosity.
The Catholic church is catching up to real-time society, experiencing their in-house resurgence of the matrix culture, with it's natural longing for balance, matrix multiculturalism - [Mother-right societies show worldwide patterns: Foundational women. Matrilineages "of one womb," and sister-brother ties, "the milk bond." Social motherhood. Matrilocal pairings. Sexual sanity. Female spheres of power. A concept of the Divine in female form. Egalitarian, communitarian values of peace and for life. The concept of matrix societies encompasses much more than a single criterion of matriliny. Many qualities define the pattern: maternal descent, matrilocal residence, egalitarian and communitarian values with an emphasis on harmonious and peaceful relations. These societies have retained female choice, initiative, and female spheres of power, in the public as well as the domestic realm, including diplomatic and inter-group relations.] Nuns...Priestesses, diviners and medicine women stand out as leaders of aboriginal liberation movements against conquest, empire, and cultural colonization... you see where I'm going here? This cultural dynamic dramatically receded during the Judeo-Christian-Islamic advance. Yet, women of personal power have persisted and now define themselves in the midst of the male authoritarian religiosity. The question is; will the Sisters, Mothers, Mother Superior-Generals existing within the Catholic politic structure survive or are we watching a long brewing feminine spiritual schism?

this is as outlaw as it gets...

2009-06-21T16:37:00.000-04:00

"Sometimes it's better not to go fast. There are beautiful sights to be seen when you're last.
Shouldn't it be that you just try your best and that's more important than beating the rest?
Shouldn't it be looking back at the end that you judge your own race by the help that you lend?
So, take what's inside you and make big, bold choices and for those who can't speak for themselves, use bold voices and make friends and love well, bring art to this place and
make the world better for the whole human race."

thanks to Jamie Lee Curtis for finding and printing this Mother's note to her son...

A Solstice for Summer, let's make home.

2009-06-20T11:14:00.000-04:00

That's the idea. A new season, Summer, or Midsummer - Litha. Summer Solstice begins on June 21, 2009 at 1:45 A.M. EDT. Sol + stice derives from a combination of Latin words meaning "sun" + "to stand still." As the days lengthen, the sun rises higher and higher until it seems to stand still in the sky. The Celts & Slavs celebrated the first day of summer with dancing & bonfires to help increase the sun's energy. The Chinese marked the day by honoring Li, the Chinese Goddess of Light. Perhaps the most enduring modern ties with Summer Solstice were the Druids' celebration of the day as the "wedding of Heaven and Earth", resulting in the present day belief of a "lucky" wedding in June. Today, the day is still celebrated around the world - most notably in England at Stonehenge and Avebury, where thousands gather to welcome the sunrise on the Summer Solstice. As a major celestial event, the Summer Solstice results in the longest day and the shortest night of the year. My Ancestors coined a term: "Honey Moon" because of the mead made from fermented honey that gave rise in celebration to the 'jumping of the broom' (wedding ceremonies) taking place on Summer Solstice. A joy. A celebration, that included the presence of place... a time and place. The spring flowers were present everywhere and on everyone to help push away any bad spirits or evil during the celestial event: the marriage of Heaven to Earth. As Above, So Below. You know? The Summer is an endless round in South Florida. The seasons here are marked by the "Mean Season" - 6/1 thru 11/1 - Hurricane's! and more markedly by the blooming of specific species of flowers. The animal kingdom will assist in marking seasonality. Mosquito's will arrive to provide distraction during outdoor gatherings, the gulf stream will move a bit closer to the shoreline and invite angling contests, wild panthers might (given a chance whilst no misguided Mikisokee or Seminole royals aren't hunting them) wander through Everglade territories or perhaps, with great good fortune, a porpoise or two will come into the bay areas to delight boaters. But other than that, South Florida patiently exudes a more or less consistent flow of warmth (oh, yes, there are the droughts we are now plagued with during the 'season'-when northerners descend from the snow and spend....which WAS NOT happening this last winter) in wait for the onslaught of summer afternoon thunder storms and monsoon style rains to replenish Lake Okeechobee and the water situation. Of late, there are more water spouts to see popping up. Bumble bees are less in sight. The hot hot hot of walking across the coral and concrete roads are more like burn burn burn, nowadays. The sun is sucking up the moisture too quickly and the lush greenery is becoming less green and less. This is just the observation of something we've come to understand clearly: global warming. It kicks up the currents between Africa and the Caribbean where foments of disaster combine and surge onto our peninsular shores. Yet, save the need for A/C, I adore Florida. It's my homeport. There are those who would like nothing better than to be elsewhere... well, goodbye, get gone and good riddance! say I. You have to make home.

I've listened to people complain about the transient state of the population in Florida, like: "Everyone is so mean...no one cares about anybody else...people are only concerned with what shines (like plastic life of big house no furniture, keeping up with the Jones')...back home folks were more friendly and cared about each other"...ad nausea it goes on. Or there is no work, the pay is too small or whatever. Well, I've lived in some wonderful places.... Boston.... where I actually lived poorly and was paid badly for making 1 million + a year for a corporation. I lived in the unblemished beauty of the North Carolina mountains where people were kind but hopelessly Republican - racist and felt it was natural to be so. I lived in upstate New York, where the change of seasons, the lakes regions, the smell of apple trees and micro vintner's painted a Rockwell-esque protrait of communities...and people lived a 'hard scrabble' life of poor wages and small town who hit who. There are always reasons to love or hate a place. But the point is; the PLACE is home. It's called planet Earth. And really, making home is a vital part of our lives. Our current population globally has forgotten that. Who among the folks you walk by in the supermarket or on riding the bus with or sitting next to in traffic have any idea of what a Sacred Site means? What it means to make home?

Marriage is a union. The unifying of Heaven to Earth, for the ancients. What would you anchor heaven to? Where is your home? Your home is a sacred place where your family lives and grows. If you are alone, like some of us, home can be extraordinarily sacred, it can be the presence of place where you feel protected, nurtured and free to express your deepest sorrow or your most exciting joy. The boundaries of your home hold specific energies that require invitation for others to enter. The food you prepare and serve is blessed by your labor. Am I making my point here? Making home is a ceremony unto itself. Summer Solstice is moment of transition that offers you opportunity to make home!

Is your home clean? Hey, I'm not going too overboard here... just think on it. A dirty, messed up home houses illness, sorrow, apathy, lack of focus, fosters dissonance. You don't have to be Martha friggin Stewart about it! She pays someone to clean for her. But when the place gets too far gone, it's project to clean it up and get things 'in order'...which translates to you! On Summer Solstice, you have an opportunity to make home. Not just to do a clean up...laundry or dishes or the bathroom. Those things we do (hopefully).... what I'm getting about here is the opportunity to make home in your heart, tied to your presence of place and anchored to heaven.
That's the idea.

Among the Indigenous Nations making home is a sacred action that includes making amends with family members we may have disagreed or fought with. Pouring water over the plants with the intention of restoring life around us. Shinning the floors with more than a mop or vacuum, spreading white light everywhere your tools clean. Making home! Making sacred. And for myself here,
it doesn't matter how long home in the material sense will be home.
What matters is that the all so vital union between heaven and earth is revitalized.
That's it.
Just a Summer Solstice tradition and thought here. Outlawed old fashioned Traditions? Ah, sacrificing a straw man may cause local concern...try a dish of honey and fresh flower petals.
Make home. It's about honoring yourself.
Care about it. It's saying you have integrity with yourself and those you invite into it.
Repair whatever damage your emotions have done to it, you have the longest day to get it done.
Only you can.
Summer Solstice, have a good one. Light a candle or do the dish of honey and flowers.

Make home.

Introducing multidimensional FRANTIC...

2009-06-17T14:15:00.000-04:00

and how about u?

Did you think Spirit had your back? Are you opening your eyes into the third dimensional drama in the morning with the idea of had spent quality time surpassing the astral and making your way into a higher realm where the guidance and support for your efforts to hold the resonance during this time of Change...the new epoch...the 2012 deliverance...is being acknowledged? Ha! Schmuck! (not Hebrew, don't have a clue how to spell it but I know exactly what it means... fool without a hill to view it all from). Perhaps you and your fellow's have a 'counsel' you attend en masse' where the confusion of information lack cohesion yet, after all, there you all are experience this group delusion with such vivid conformation, how ever could it NOT BE all valid and of consequence? Am I hitting a familiar theme for you? Hope so. Hope you are hearing the anger I'm putting out here. In fact, I am hoping that this blade (my wordsmithing faltering and fey as it might be) is cutting into the ether's and ripping it's way onto that crystal table where my counsel sits. I'm looking for conformation. And, beyond temper tantrums or taking the broadsword energy sticker and pointing it towards the heavens above, I am using the blade I've not ever laid down... these words. So, do they hear? Do they pay attention? And for gosh goodness sake....WHAT THE FUCK IS UP???!!!!

A wonderfully prolific, common sense metaphysical writer, Ted Andrews, once explained to me that there wasn't ever going to be a time where I could not ask for conformation. So, this blog my just simply be that. A plea for conformation. While the paragraph above is self involed and self pitying, it is also part of who I am at this moment ... and I require answers. And that's my point in this introduction,

You can ask for conformation. It doesn't matter regarding what. Or who. You must ask for conformation...why bother to read endless syrupy emails beginning 'dear ones' or 'my fellow ascended masters' or whatever other swarmey salutation begins an endless litany of all the wondrous and planetary shifting into higher dimensions but first you must go through the dregs of hell to achieve it...why bother to accept that crap? Me, my crowd, the ones I work with, most of us put one foot ahead of the other ... we do the footwork ... and we have every hope that the miracles are manifesting. That the choices we make, the tasks we undertake, the integrity we hold, has meaning and, well, to be quite plain, gives us some brownie points up there in counsel chambers. Right now... it's looking bad on that side of it. Like, fuck ya all, you're on your own.

There's this: As Above, So Below. I'll tell ya, my 'above' looks like this fella's:
There he was, picking up peanuts and going quite mad... a victim of his own foolishness. So, I tell ya... here I am, a victim of my own doubts... waiting for conformation. Like I've fallen into a vat of many years of my own pour-offs on the bench... the stench of being rebuked by my counsel and my loved guides holds me in a bouquet of anxiety with a top note of shrill anger. Suggestions?

Installment complete. Where is my conformation? Where are my guides and the counsel who has my back? Where o where can my baby be?